The past few months have been a busy, but blessed blur. During this time we have visited South Carolina and believed that this is where God wants us to move and call the Savannah AC Church family “home”. John has told the church here that his last Sunday will be June 5th and I did not sign my renewal contract at school. John’s resignation and my letting the school know I was not coming back were difficult things to do. We are excited about all God has in store for us, but right now feel like we are living in two worlds. Trusting His Heart.
This has been a year of non-stop sinus infections for me. Reader’s Digest Version – after antibiotics since September I saw an ENT. More antibiotics, CT of sinuses, follow up today. ONE MONTH OUT OF SCHOOL is the only way to get the infection out of my head – the kids I love are keeping me infected!
A MONTH!!! I know many people would be jumping up and down at the thought of a month off (thankfully I have sick days, so I will still get paid). As for me, that’s just not how I work. I am at school no matter what. I have called in sick once in all the time I have been there. I take 1/2 days for appointments – I am just always at school. The thought of a month not there is still hard for me to comprehend. It totally makes sense that this is why I have been so sick all year. I understand it in my head, but my heart is having a hard time. I love my job and the kids and staff I work with. I do, however, want to feel like myself again. SO, I have had to quote a lot of Scripture to myself tonight.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
And I’m not sure where my “MORE” verse fits in all of this, but I have to trust that it does.
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, Ephesians 3:20
I am going to have to continually trust HIS heart. I know HE has this all under control and that none of this was a surprise to God, even though it is to me. SO, for the next month I will continue to pray and trust Him during this unexpected change in life.
This song came to mind – “Trust His Heart” by Babbie Mason
All things work for our good
Though sometimes we can’t
See how they could
Struggles that break our hearts in two
Sometimes blind us to the truth
Our Father knows what’s best for us
His ways are not our own
So when your pathway grows dim
And you just can’t see him,
Remember He’s still on the throne
Chorus:
God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don’t understand
When don’t see his plan
When you can’t trace his hand
Trust His Heart
He sees the master plan
He holds the future in his hand,
Don’t live as those who have no hope,
While our hope is found in him.
We see the present clearly
But he sees the first and last
And like a tapestry He’s weaving you and me,
To someday be just like him
(Chorus)
He alone is faithful and true
He alone knows what is best for you
(Chorus)
When you can’t trace his hand
When you don’t see his plan
When you don’t understand
Trust His Heart